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TW-Bad Brain

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  I alone with my demon The one that holds my hand.  We now call him bad brain That’s all he is Bad He gets in my head Tells me to harm Only myself For a moment I’ll feel better I remind him I’m stronger than him He drags me towards his home The dark shadow place Where shadows roam and voices whisper I remind him I’m stronger than him I have to fight No one else will

Patience

  When I was growing up my mom used to say “pray for patience you need it. I’d come back saying “I don’t want it and I’m not praying for it. “. I never prayed for it. Somehow, as I got older I developed it anyway. Not sure how or when.  I just know one day I got it. I got married at 22 years old. I had a husband who acted more like a child than an adult. Trufully, in his 40’s he hasn’t changed, I have heard. He is still the same. Only difference is, we are divorced.  I had a child at 21. Maybe that’s when patience started to form. I had this being I had to care for 24/7. A lot of the time with no help to speak of. I was on my own and so far from what I called home.  When my daughter turned 6 years of age she was already in kindergarten. She was the oldest in her class. She swore she knew everything. I had prepared her well. She knew how to spell her first name, she knew her phone number, and a few other key things. Thanks to a teacher friend who gave us 10 goals to work on. My daughter