I Want to be Wanted
Walk into work and I hope that I am seen. Yet, so many of those I work are already spoken for. It’s hard to feel like I can be seen in a world that is fast paced like the job I am in. I am surrounded by so many good looking people. Several of them are so nice to chat with and work with. Yet, I just want to be seen. The moment I feel like a conversation is going somewhere, it stops. Stops cold and we don’t speak again. Even though I see them in a regular basis. Not even sure of what I did or what I said. I go back thinking if I just fade in the background is best the way to go. I go home after a long day and attempt to fall asleep. Yet, my brain goes nonstop telling me that I am not worth it. I am not pretty enough. I am not thin enough. No matter how much I am myself it’s not good enough. My mom’s words still ring in my head after all of these years. “No man will ever want you.” I just wonder if she was right. When she shouted those words out of ange...