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Reputation

  I have been thinking a lot about reputations for sometime now. I have thought about my own reputation to the people around me. How one simple thing can change them in just an instant. One miscommunication or misunderstanding can ruin it for someone forever. Yet, we don’t stop and think sometimes.  When I had my incident happen last month I had become angry. I wrote an article that was very raw and emotionally driven. One of the most emotional pieces I probably have written in a long time. Sometimes when something is written with such emotion it can trigger someone else. I’m sure it did. About a month ago my writing was called racist. Basically I was told I had some racist views. Those who truly knew me stopped and asked questions. They asked what was really driving the article. Why did I have such passion behind the words I chose?  Once I explained the meaning they completely understood where I was coming from. We didn’t discuss it again.  When I had gone to therapy that Monday for a

New Look

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  I don’t share the inner works of me for so many reasons. A lot of it is for vulnerability. I share my life like it’s nothing. I also share it so many of you don’t feel alone. I like many of you do random things when life gets crazy.  In 2016 I died my hair for the first time. I embraced my nickname Rogue. I had been called that for many years. My ex-husbands family were big fans of the X-Men universe. I went to the salon and bleached a white streak in the front. Now, I really did look like Rogue.  I did that after a very stressful time in my life. A time my family thought about taking me to Jacksonville Florida for suicide watch. The first time in my life I probably needed it. I will not deny that.  Now I’m 2022, another stressful time. I compare the impact like 2016. A lot of the same feelings have been there. The only difference is, I’m stronger mentally. The stress is still there. What did I do?  I turned my hair blue 😆 Okay maybe, not the smartest thing to do. I needed to do som