Tali’s World

Not too long ago I read a thing that says getting a hug for about 5 seconds can be good for us. The longer the hug with someone we trust/love the more beneficial it is to the person’s health. I didn’t think much about this. Not until recently.  I went to a kink event yesterday. One I hadn’t been to in a very long time. Of course when people haven’t seen you in awhile they want to greet you and hug you. I’m always down for a hug from certain members. More often than not from anyone there really.   I enjoy the warm arms around me as they hug me. I enjoy the smell of my friends as I breathe them in. Being primal I notice these things. I notice a lot when my friends touch my arms as they wrap me with friendship and love. Yesterday was different for me.  When one of my friends hugged me they were warm. With a high of 30 something yesterday they felt good. The warmth felt super nice. What I began to fill was different. I wanted to nuzzle and feel the embrace longer. Later on during the night

  As I am going through therapy I am feeling things I didn’t know I could feel. I think some of it is normal. I think some of it stems from abuse. Honestly, right now I don’t know which is which. Is it normal or is it something I really need to work on.  My whole life I have been friends with guys. Most of my childhood my friends were guys. I can count on one hand how many were. Even now as an adult if you were to look on my Snapchat, you’d see mostly guys. For some reason I have felt like I could always relate to them. Maybe deep down that isn’t true. Maybe I felt like I had to prove something. As an adult I have found I became good friends with guys whose marriages seemed to have fallen on the rocks. One of my last relationships was just like that. His wife and him were getting a divorce. I became good friends with him. Once, he and his wife got back together. I got replaced. One of my best friends is a guy. All the time I feel like I will be forgotten when he is with his family. I k